I am about 80% certain that at least one of my family members has found this blog. I could be taking conversation hints the wrong way, but I have an idea (both from things people have said to me, and from my visitor profile) that maybe someone found it.
I have some pictures on here that family members will be able to pretty quickly recognize, even though I've hidden faces. (Or sometimes they aren't pictures of humans at all. For instance, I have some pictures of my apartment in there. Also, I couldn't resist pictures of most of my pets.)
If you know me well and you stumbled upon this blog, it would be pretty easy to figure out who I am.
That is ok.
My goal in anonymity here is more for general internet protection. I would like to be able to keep my internet self as separate from my in-real-life-self as I can. I would like to have the freedom to figure out and explore and investigate without having to worry about any professional repercussions.
But also, I am able to write more on here because I know it is relatively secret and anonymous. Because I know most people in my lives do not know about it, and so I am free to not worry about what they will think on this one tiny part of the world.
And that is also important to me.
So, if you know me, and you have found this blog by chance or by effort, I would like it if you could not bring it up. If it is something I want you to know about, then I will let you know. I think it is ok with me if you read it. Because hopefully it will help you better understand me. But please don't judge me for what you read here, because a lot of things on here are rough thoughts and ideas. They haven't been hammered out into perfection. And they do not have to.
Because this is my space for thoughts and ideas. For thinking and discussing. For figuring out the autistic side of me in ways I can't necessarily do in real life. For finding and talking and hearing from lovely new people.
And once again, please do not tell me in real life. Because if I knew that you read this, if I knew that people read this for certainty, people who know me in real life, then I would lose so much of the freedom that I need from this space.
Note: this does not apply to people I have met through this blog, or if I have specifically and explicitly mentioned it to you in real life.Labels: autism, friends, me, my family, Random, this blog