I went to a football game this weekend.
Some of my friends were going, too, and it was on my old campus where I am an alumni (of less than a year! gasp!).
Also, I'm still tired and thinking weird so that is why everything is broken up into segments. Because I like segments. But hey, I'm mostly using sentences now even, so that's cool. Grammar and stuff! Yay word choice and organization or structure or whatnot!
BEFORE THE GAME
So it was an efficient way to see a lot of people that I miss. And one of my close friends from the group of 4 bio majors was coming up and another one lives near by so it was 3 of the 4 all there at once. And I spent the night before with them and played with their dog and talked and drove to school on the long car ride up (well, talked while one of them drove).
It was super super awesome to see my friends again. Although the friend who was coming from far away missed their flight because Colorado is flooded so it took a long time to get to the airport so she didn't even get in until 1 am and then we talked a lot. But we also slept in a lot and then the friend whose house we slept over at has awesome parents and they made us BACON for breakfast (and other foods). And also we all got to sleep in beds there, and that's always cool.
And then saw a few more people and said goodbye and went to meet boyfriend because I had seats with him.
It was super crowded. There's a bazillion people on campus before football games. But boyfriend's family usually tailgates somewhere quiet, so I could sit in the grass and eat chicken and talk to people I knew only. And we got to see boyfriend's old roommate and his girlfriend and they are awesome people, and also I miss them, and also they do cool things in science so it was fun to learn that. And there was food.
DURING THE GAME
We got to the stadium early because we always get to the stadium early. Boyfriend because he likes to watch warmups and predict who is going on the field when and possible lineups and who even knows what and me because I like going in when the entry is less crowded and when it starts less loud so that I can get used to the noise and so that it slowly increases.
And we got to watch the marching band and I LOVE marching bands. With the lines and the music and the patterns they make OUT OF PEOPLE!
And then there is the whole announcer thing in the beginning where the announcer says all the same things all the time and I like that. Except it sounded different today than it did as a student so I didn't like that.
And then there was the sports part. Which was ok. I'm not super interested in them, but they can usually hold my interest for the first quarter. And then there are fun things to look for and I like to watch the clock change and I like to watch people on the sidelines. And I looked for people I knew and sometimes was bored. But also boyfriend likes sports so sometimes I go to them. And I had fun sometimes.
And it wasn't even hot which is good because I hate hot and also I tend to faint in it, or almost-faint, and that's no good.
And also then there is MORE MARCHING BAND AT HALFTIME! I really love marching bands.
And it was quieter than watching in the student section because there were more adults there so no drunk people yelling right behind us or falling on me. (Boyfriend liked student section better because of "atmosphere" but I was very glad to be quieter with more space to sit and less drunk people.)
And boyfriend lets me play with his hands and do fun stimming things with them like when you hit your fingers through another person's fingers or just repeatedly run into their hand with your hand or things like that. Also his hands are large so my whole hand fits inside which is good when it is cold.
And also I saw someone on the other team punch someone on our team, which amused me and I think is not supposed to happen in football.
And also our team won, which made boyfriend happy. Although I don't know why because the other team lost so half of the people on the field are sad and a lot of the people in the stadium probably are too because people who go to football games often tend to be emotionally affected by them, so I don't know how people can be happy when other people are sad. But I don't think I understand sports probably the way "sports people" do.
AFTER THE GAME
We saw more people. I saw my baby cousin who is now in college which is really weird because she should be small.
Also it was weird to go in buildings I used to live but where I don't anymore because I am grown up and graduated.
But it was nice to see people and talk to people.
THE DRIVE HOME
We got in the car and drove away. I went home with boyfriend and his family because my friends were staying overnight and going out and stuff and I knew that I wouldn't have been able to handle it. And then boyfriend's dad was stressed about getting to a specific route onto the tollroad and it was stress and loud and noise. But we found it.
I have a silent meltdown in the car on the way back, because I am driving back with my boyfriends family and don't want them to know, although it is ok if boyfriend knows and luckily he and i can sort of talk in sign so no one else notices. (The not wanting anyone to know is the reason for the silent, not the meltdown.) And boyfriend is good at helping with meltdowns even at the one the day before where I lost all my words. I like boyfriend. (I think I will need to come up with a good name for him so that I stop just referring to him as boyfriend because that sounds sort of silly and I might end up referencing him a lot or he might pop up here and there in posts because I see him a lot.) So boyfriend helped and then I got better and went to sleep in the car almost and he talked of silly things that would make me laugh once I got more focus back and I was ok until I got home.
LATER AND ALSO NOW
I got home and went to sleep for a very long time.
And then I woke up.
and now I am still off and sad and floppy and tired.
And also starting school.
And changes. And tired.
and I probably need to remember that I can do loud crowded stuff and even have fun at them sometimes
but that is certainly does have an effect
(after football games freshman year, I would fall asleep within an hour wherever I was, even if it was on the floor in someone else's room, and basically sleep the whole rest of the weekend)
But maybe not the best timing because it is a day later and I am still super tired and I have orientation starting Monday and there are social things there and other things there and I have things to do and paperwork and SO MANY THINGS.
Friends are good, though.
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